Insomnia
All nights passed in blank, at these days.
I twist, I straight myself, I role, I strip myself from clothing, I cover my naked body, I'm numb but I can't sleep.
I feel like a fog is darkening my dreams. I lay at my bed and feel the time passing by between my fingers, I count lambs, I count trees, I count drops of the oceans, I count tears of the world...but I still can't sleep.
I try to inquire myself of my worries, my anxiety, but I found no reason. I just can't sleep.
I burn cigarettes and smash them on an ashtray till the ashes and the rest of the consume cigarettes fill it up, I burn my eyes watching movies and reading books, I just can't sleep.
I will lie down now again, in a few minutes I will lift me and pick up a book, probably "The Complete Short Stories of Franz Kafka" again and read another short story till rays of sun come trough my window and I try to sleep again, but in vain. In a few moments after I will rise again and another day will be enforced to me.
Maybe I should try to establish a new routine; maybe I just need to find a new hobby to try to spend energies, because one thing is for sure I'm not feeling tired, by the contrary; maybe I just need to sleep, perhaps today.
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I twist, I straight myself, I role, I strip myself from clothing, I cover my naked body, I'm numb but I can't sleep.
I feel like a fog is darkening my dreams. I lay at my bed and feel the time passing by between my fingers, I count lambs, I count trees, I count drops of the oceans, I count tears of the world...but I still can't sleep.
I try to inquire myself of my worries, my anxiety, but I found no reason. I just can't sleep.
I burn cigarettes and smash them on an ashtray till the ashes and the rest of the consume cigarettes fill it up, I burn my eyes watching movies and reading books, I just can't sleep.
I will lie down now again, in a few minutes I will lift me and pick up a book, probably "The Complete Short Stories of Franz Kafka" again and read another short story till rays of sun come trough my window and I try to sleep again, but in vain. In a few moments after I will rise again and another day will be enforced to me.
Maybe I should try to establish a new routine; maybe I just need to find a new hobby to try to spend energies, because one thing is for sure I'm not feeling tired, by the contrary; maybe I just need to sleep, perhaps today.
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